This Tuesday will mark the 5th anniversary of my sister and her husband's death.
I've learned so much these past 5 years from what happened to them, but sometimes, it just really sucks.
Sometimes, most of the time, I just really miss her. I miss them. I miss how much they loved me and Cody. I hate that I didn't realize that for so long.
It just sucks.
It seems like basically everyone I know right now is pregnant, so I was looking at baby names recently, trying to pick names for my family and friend's kids. :) I looked up Steve and Catheryn and do you know what they mean?
Catheryn means "Pure." Steve means "The Crowned."
I don't know why I think that is so awesome, but I do. What better meanings could you have?
I just watched the music video of Hilary Week's song, Beautiful Heartbreak. It was a beautiful song with a beautiful meaning. We all have trials. We all have to go through them. We should try to come out from the trials having learned something, and having turned it into a beautiful heartbreak instead of wishing it away.
Sometimes I still want to wish it away. Right now is one of those times.
And then I remember how loving our Savior is. How could I wish away anything He has done? Because of their death, I am so much closer to Him now. I guess that's the beginning of the beautiful part of it.
And just because...(This is my brother, Dan - not Steve, Catheryn's husband)
I miss you, guys. A lot.