I usually don't notice the little floating baby anymore..It's been up for so long it's become kind of no big deal and I forget about it most of the time. I noticed it today. HOLY moly. 26 days. 26 days?!?! We could have a baby before that. That's like...not very long at all! I'm super, super excited about it, but I still dont' really feel like it's real. I can't picture myself really having a baby. I know I'm going to have to, but since nothing like this has ever happened before I have nothing to compare it to and nothing to base it against.
When I was a junior in high school I was invited by a lady in my branch to be there when she had her first baby. I was so, so excited. I knew it would be an awesome, amazing, probably even spiritual experience.
It wasn't. At all.
She was super skinny and her baby was too big. She had to have an emergency c-section, and the only things I remember were her being in so much pain and never being able to get comfortable and a whole lot of really gross stuff coming out. But never a baby. I thought seeing the baby come out would make all the other horrible images just go away...But I never saw the baby come out so the horrible images were all I was left with. After that day I was sure I never wanted to have a baby.
I am sure now that I DO want to have a baby...But thinking about me being like her...super uncomfortable and in so much pain...It doesn't make me very excited. I am still planning on doing it natural - hopefully things work out with that- but I haven't taken any classes yet or anything. We signed up for a hypnobabies class that I heard was just awesome, but after paying our deposit the lady called and canceled on us. We were pretty upset. This weekend we're taking a class at the hospital...But it's only 1 day for a few hours. Is that enough time to really teach us everything we need to know? I'm a little worried.
But I guess in the end when you get something this cute to come home with.... it's worth it.